Have you ever questioned what you’re doing? OK you can stop laughing now. Of course you have, we all have at some point asked ourselves, “Why am I doing this?” or “Do I want to do this?” or let’s be fair here. Haven’t we all asked, “What was I thinking when I agreed to do this?” It’s in these moments of doubt that searching begins. If we don’t search, we won’t find and if we don’t ask, we’ll never know.
A few weeks ago, someone asked me how long it takes to write my blog. Too long, in minutes, but who’s counting? That’s the best answer I can muster because when I started my blog it took an average 45 minutes. Think, write, post, done! I still follow that same procedure but now it takes 3 times that long. Maybe I should quit. Here’s how God answered when I told him “Maybe I should quit.”
I was looking for a postage stamp when this card, which I didn’t know existed, fell out of the drawer.
Yesterday, for the first time, there were some pretty scathing comments on my post in Google. In Facebook you ‘like’ a post, the equivalent in Google is a +1. Mercifully Google hid the worst, but one of the derogatory comments was “man this was hard to read… BABBLE. ignorant, babble” and it collected 6 +1s! To top it all off, the actual post got zero. Maybe I should quit.
I remembered a little story I heard way back when I was too young to grasp the meaning. A preacher was in the middle of sermon when a few people got up and left. Instead of wondering what he said that offended them, he thanked God that his message convicted them. I still remember thinking there could have been any number of reasons why people left a service. Yesterday, some readers with their own filters read something I wrote, and it offended them. The Lord showed me His word in Galatians 6:7-8 Do not be deceived. God will not be made a fool. For a person will reap what he sows, because the person who sows to his own flesh will reap corruption from the flesh, but the one who sows to the Spirit will reap eternal life from the Spirit.
If you read my posts, you know I write only encouraging words. I use scripture, the Bible, to support what I say. If that offends you, I’m pretty sure you can find other places to expend your energy and use your time. I know my inbox receives at least 80 emails every day – all with something to read, and if’ that’s not enough, the Internet can fill up 1,000 days with any topic I want to read.
If you want to be encouraged in your daily life, stick around. I’m not quitting just because it takes me too long to think, write, and post. I’m not going to quit because convicted people invite me to join them in hell. When I accept Jesus, when I made God Lord of my life, when I turned my faith toward true north, God gives me light. When you give a gift, the recipient can do whatever they wish with it. God gave me the gift of encouragement before I was even born. I could keep it all to myself and let it get tarnished and useless – or I can share it – even with people who don’t want it. I want to be like John. “John was a lamp that burned and gave light, and you chose for a time to enjoy his light.” John 5:35
Last night as I was contemplating “Why am I doing this?” I realized that the enemy of my soul is trying to feed me garbage. It’s neither healthy nor desirable. Maybe I should quit. I am going to quit – quit doubting and start believing God. God will not bring you to it, then not bring you through it. Maybe I should quit doubting. What are you not going to quit?